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My name is Shuwen
Shuwen is my name
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I love photography, beauty, fortune, and worldly possessions.
I adore fawns, bunnies, starbucks, and eiffel tower.
Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication.
Sophistication is part and parcel of life.
Life is like a book of unravelling mysteries.
My life is God's novel, God is the author of my soul.
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Thursday, 18 August 2011 @ 07:59
Recently, I have been very troubled by something over the weeks. I'm not not happy with my performance and I'm losing myself in IG. Whenever I fork out my time and effort, the more I find trainings become something so routine. Everything I do I am committing mistakes after mistakes, meeting failures after failures. It is as though I am giving people the impression that I am playing a fool by not being serious. Deep in my heart, I actually felt so honoured and blessed that I've met such an amazing group of people. A great coach and a group of seniors who are always so patient towards me, together with my fellow peers who are constantly cheering me on. I think they're thinking that I am wasting their precious time for being a burden to the team. Come on, be realistic. Who would be happy when someone holds the team back. I pratice my mistakes and I'm obviously deteriorating day by day. Very often I felt so lost, so confused. Everything I do seemed so hopeless especially when no one sees that I did tried my very best. No matter how temptation comes knocking time and time again, "Mind over body." I tell myself. I don't want to quit and leave just like that. It'll be a foolish act and I might end up regretting my decision for the rest of my life. You see, despite I've been a great disappointment, I'm have and never am given up on myself. I want to keep trying, I want to stop giving people the impression that I'm kidding around. Besides, why would I kid around with such thing at the first place? You think I don't have a life to live and other priorities to fulfill? Right now, I am hoping for nothing much. I just wish God would grant me strength and courage to keep on keeping on.
Okay, there there. I'm being sadist again. Can't stand myself sometimes.
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