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This is absolutely the most awesome place you are bypassing right now. (Nah, I'm just kidding)
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Tuesday, 16 August 2011 @ 07:59
Dear God,
It had been quite some time I last delicate a blog post to You.
I'm constantly been filled with surprises of what my days ahead had instored for me,
and You have no idea how in awe I've been with the recent happenings.
Life had been so different for me nowadays, hectic schedules, always so preoccupied.
Many things had been occurring in my life, the good ones and the bad ones.
I've faced many joyful moments and countless challenges,
but still, despite of the amazing and terrible times, I want to give thanks to You for the every little things.
You and I know very well that my walk with You is not that fantastic.
I am simple minded in my perception, I am complacent at times when things don't get in my way.
Very often giving up has been my greatest temptation, but not trying again is never in my dictionary.
Even in my relationship with You. Yes, I have not matured, I am only a babe in Christ.
Nevertheless, I would rather be stagnant in spiritual walk than to completely wander away from You.
If all it takes to slide back to You means breaking my ego,
making harsh sacrifices, or perhaps placing aside all my guilt and self-pity,
I will want to pay the price just to start all over again from square one.
For You, I am not willing to give up on myself.
Like a child who is juvenile and only revolves around unicorns,
I want to be that little sweetheart of Yours who always scream "daddy daddy."
Run to You like a wild baboon and stick to You like a bubble gum.
When I'm sad I want to be left chuckling with Your tickles,
or perhaps like a teddy bear who always wants to snuggled at your warm embrace.
Very often I do not fathom the "No's" You said to me.
So I started whining and throwing temper tantrum like no body's business.
But eventually I acted obediently as I knew that what matters most is to please a dear Father's heart.
It gives me great comfort to not see You worry, it gives me full assurance when I see You smile.
Let my world only revolves around You and no one else.
May I see Your heart even deeper and grant Your heart desires.
God as much as You've loved me and given me happiness in many areas,
I want to do so much for You as long as it makes You happy.
Let me be that little creation of Yours that You are proud of,
Molding me with Your potter's hands and flaunt me like a perfect master piece.
I want to dream big dream for You, fulfill what You have called me to do.
With Your gift of love, I want to love one another.
With Your gift of life, I want to live for You to the fullest.
With Your gift of abundance, I want to use it as a blessing to others.
With Your gift of compassion, I want to reach out to the under privileged.
With Your gift of opportunities, I want to live my life with thankfulness.
With Your gift of musical talents, I want to sing and compose a love song.
I long for a pure heart, a heart that is consecrated to follow after thee.
Let me be a manifestation of Your undying love for the world to see.
Draw me away oh draw me away, I want to be entranced once again.
May my love for You be like a lost maiden in the vast abyss.
Abba Father, forgive me if I've disappoint You at times.
Be patient with me when I'm slow in comprehending Your good intentions.
You know me, I'm just a curious wild thing merely wanting to seek adventure.
With my permission of giving You full control over me, pull me back if I've gotten too far.
Love me Father and enrapture me with Your lullaby.
All I want now is nothing much, really.
I just want to be my daddy's little sweetheart...
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