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My name is Shuwen
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Yesterday we changed our stunts grouping. I felt pretty reluctant thou as I'm no longer in the same group as him anymore. Today I went for seniors training, where among the juniors who turned up, only three of them were girls. Right after we've all done our warm up and stretching exercise we straight away proceed to stunting. But before it commence, first the guys and girls were told to stand in a row from shortest to tallest, and then we were all allocated with a number. I was number 2, and among the seniors who had then stepped out to form another row, apparently he was also being called the same number as mine. I was filled with excitement back then, as I'm aware that this might be the last time I'm grouping him and I will never know when I'll get such a chance again. So, the group I'm in only had five of us. I was the only junior girl, like obviously, and the two seniors guiding us were the exact same seniors when I was in my previous stunting group. Initially, I was looking forward in revising through the stunts I've learnt. However, my excitement had suddenly turned to anxiety after coach mentioned about the juniors trying out toss up chair with the seniors. As you know, I was the only junior girl, and he was the only senior guy in our current grouping. Instantly, in my head my reaction was like... "Shit!" This time it's not just mere enthusiasm I'm feeling like during last Saturday's training, it's simply just plain awkwardness and uneasiness. My performance when doing the first round of toss up chair was just way too horrible despite I've tried doing this stunt before. I had to like figure out how should I do my surface acting and at the same time overcome this uncomfortable feeling within a nick of time. Luckily I've found a solution to my answer, and this is how it all goes:


- Using the hands first instead of the legs. It simply means that I grabbed on to his shoulders first then I place up my legs on his thighs. There's really a different effect if I were to do it this way than the other way round. I don't know how this ease the tention I'm feeling, but it just somehow works.
- Pretending that he is someone else. By doing so, it helps me to put aside my distraction in order to be more focused while getting up on the stunt.
- Imply the trust element. "The essence of trust is in its bond." I need to learn to trust the "base" so that I'm facing my fears and overcome my perception errors.


Times passed by quickly at that moment just like what I've hoped it would. The seniors then proceed to praticing their performance routine, whereas the juniors would be brushing up on our toss up/calf up shoulder sit and transition to shoulder stand. There were three seniors guiding us in our stunts up, and of course I'm damn happy that one of them was him. We juniors were seperated into two groups where each group there're four base and only one flyer. I know it'll be a good opportunity for me as being the only flyer in the group I'll get to brush up on my stunts more than I usually would. But gees it's so damn freaking tiring, and for once I've never felt so... "Bruised." I felt like I'm being anyhow thrown up in the begining of the stunts, and being anyhow thrown down during the end of the stunts. I'm not trying to voice out my unhappinesses here. I'm just making a fun and casual remark, so don't get me wrong. But all in all it was worth it! It's probably because the guys in my group were more smaller built in size so he was the senior that stood by to watch us. I couldn't really remember who was the one I did the shoulder stand with, but there was this point of time where everyone assumes that I was well balanced when I did this particular shoulder stand. Then out of a sudden I loss my balance, and when I was about to fall the spotters weren't prepared. So, he manage to come to my rescue to grab hold of me before I got back on the ground. Lol!
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