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Tuesday, 28 June 2011 @ 07:59

Here's a little caption I've taken with the clique of bitches! Introducing to you: the confused, the straight, the butch and the lesbian. Haha! So lame. We so happen to be the "Grey Gang" for today. How cool was that?

I'm getting easily worn out and restless nowadays. Unlike the past, I no longer show my full participation in class and my performance had somehow deteriorated. I also get hungry easily that I literally eat like nobody's business and can still go hungry again an hour later or so out of no reason. Honestly speaking, I've done very badly for my UT1 and it's not helping me to push myself even harder for the upcoming UT2. Also, I've gained weight, and you know girls, they get very sensitive to such issue. I'm not trying to be sarcastic here and for me to say about my weight will probably piss people off. But I can't help it. Besides, I just hit the gym with some Rz guys and they were frank with me about some areas of my body. Damn! I'm now so freaking desperate to loose that 5 kilos. It's for me, yours truly, as a flyer, it's for my own good.

Yesterday we've done some pretty cool workouts. I was like panicking when coach mentioned that it's gonna be very tough. It was only after that then I realised that it's only referring to the guys. Haha! Okay, so this is how it all goes. The guys were suppose to lie down on the ground and a girl will be standing on their palm. Then with the help of a back spot supporting the girl's balance, the guys will be doing lifting up exercises for ten counts. As usual before the whole thing commence, the guys and girls aligned ourselves in two separate rows and the girls were grouped with the guys around their suitable size. Unlike the other groups, the group I'm in only had four guys and four girls. Which this it was just nice for all of us as the whole workout could be done within a short period of time. What excites me most was I was actually in the same group as him! OMG, I was in disbelieve back then. Despite of my happiness I still avoided him by trying not to stand too near to him, or to let other girls to be lifted by him instead. So I thought that time is gonna pass like that upon doing the lifting exercises with the guys I'm allocated with. Somehow or rather, things didn't went what I've expected. During the second round of the lifting exercise, the base that was lifting my weight was having a hard time due to my difficulty of having a stable platform and my bad body posture. As a result, I lost balance and slipped to the ground. He then came in and took over Priscilla in back spotting me. Willy and I went for another go, and I somehow still couldn't stabilize myself that I ended up grabbing his wrist very tightly. After the tenth count I thought that I would be slowly supported down to the ground. But it turned out that I was being lifted away instead. It came in so unexpected to me. It's like the awkward feeling when I'm being brought close to his side for that few seconds. Lol! Right after that round, he together with another guy so happens to be their turn next. Out of a sudden Priscilla asked me to go over to the other side to do the lifting exercise with him. I was like... "What?! Why me?" When he did the lifting up exercise with me he did it so fast, like to him it's nothing only. Chey...

If it wasn't because of Azry, I wouldn't be hitting the school gym today. I was relieved to see some Rz guys there who've reached before me, and I thought that only the juniors would be gyming today. But some time later three senior guys made their appearance, and to my surprise, he was one of the three. For the whole time I was like sticking closely to the girls, and when they had left early there was no other girls for me to turn to that Azry became my spare tire. Lol! Well, I had to admit that during that point of time being the only girl was somewhat weird, but it turned out to be worth it as I've gotten quite an amount of attention. I meant attention as in a good way, like I've gotten more help and guidance when I was training my triceps. Meanwhile, of course there is a bad side to it. You know guys, when they gather in a group they always show their playful side and start disturbing others. So I'm like being teased most of the time, and knowing that I get very shy when I'm around with them, they kept poking fun of me and ask lame questions that made me abashed. There was this point of time when I was just merely taking my weight which I didn't know that it's visible from afar. So Shaun and Willy who happen to be nearby saw my weight and they started giving that annoying "ohor" sound. There was also this moment where Shaun asked me why I'm still staying when it's already quite late, and he went on like, "Who are you waiting for? Waiting for me uh? Oh I know! You waiting for the gym uncle is it? Or you waiting for Junhao?" I replied him frantically like, "no!" He started giggling, and to my dismay, he turn around and called out to him. "Eh Junhao! Shuwen is waiting for you." I was so stunned. I didn't know how to react that I immediately walked out of the gym. I really have a bad feeling that they sensed something after this incident. It was already 6pm when all of us left the gym. Azry had other appointment so I'm left all alone in that awkwardness with the group of guys. Luckily before we officially leave the campus, Jasmine asked the guys to wait for her CE talk to end and then leave together. I felt relieved that there's finally a girl to keep me accompany, but only for that short while travelling from school to the Woodlands station. We patiently waited for her for 20 mins and the guys obviously got very bored. With no surprise, I myself got some treatment of being teased by them, and being the only girl I somewhat got into the spotlight. The guys together with him made some discoveries about me, such as being in the same class as Eugene, or the fact that I'm actually very noisy during class. Then when I saw my classmates passing by and I waved at them, they were like disturbing me saying that they should ask my classmates how I actually behave in class. Though I felt like I was in an awkward position most of the time, I really enjoyed the fact that at least I've gotten the attention, especially from him. He seems pretty involved in the conversation the guys had with me. Not to forget the part where we are heading our seperate ways back home. Some of the guys went to get something to munch on whereas him together with another two guys and I head off first. It was a pity though that I was the only one that's heading the other direction towards Jurong East. He was like biding me goodbye in that... manner, and that... look. The feeling is utterly undescrible.

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